By far the question I'm asked most on a regular basis is, “How did you begin on your path as a healer and how did you find your teachers?”
The short answer, my path and my teachers found me.
The long answer...
Some of us are born into this physical world remembering why we have come, and some of us have forgotten. Based on my life experiences and those of my clients, I discovered the "forgetting" is often linked to past trauma and present day challenges, which often cause dissociation, a sense of being disconnected and separated.
I was one who forgot. My most trying time being the moment where the past and present merged, and everything surfaced at once - physical disease, childhood abuse, emotional trauma, toxic relationships. I hit rock bottom. I remember the day vividly. It was a moment where my suffering became fully charged in my physical and emotional body. I was weak, broken down, and fell to the floor in tears. I remember exactly the feeling of the grey textured tile on my fingertips, as I lay on my bathroom floor in New York. It was in this moment of fear that I finally let go and something shifted. I realized I could not do this alone. I could not heal alone. I could not move through my life alone. I ultimately had little control. Everything I had learned was not the truth and the most painful of all, I did not even know my true self. For all of these years, I had silenced the voice of my soul. This was the pain I felt. I had turned by back on myself.
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I BEGAN TO PRAY.
A few days later the quality of synchronicity began to appear in my life. Since I was open, since I had asked for help, Spirit started communicating with me through people and signs in the world.
The first sign I received was at my holistic clinic in New York City where I was receiving Vitamin IV therapy for Lyme disease, an illness I was trying to recover from for the past year. The man sitting next to me was very talkative and began asking me about my life and healing path. We got to talking and he shared that his sister lived in Switzerland and during a visit to a biological medicine clinic she was able to completely recover from lyme. Surprisingly, my boyfriend at the time and I were leaving in a few weeks to Switzerland for a wedding. He shared with me the name of the clinic and I contacted them that day. Since it was such short notice they unfortunately had no openings but the woman on the phone said I could write a letter to their head doctor describing my case. The next day I mailed him a hand written letter and a week later, I was not only accepted to the clinic but the director said he would personally take my case. I lived at the clinic for 1 month and began the process of healing my body with natural therapies including homeopathic medicine and a vegetarian diet.
This was the very beginning of my path to healing myself. When I returned home from the clinic, various healers presented in my life. Not long after I moved out of NYC and into a cottage by the sea in Amagansett. Here is where I truly began the process of inner work and connecting with the natural world. Around this time as well, a dear friend invited me to her home for a gathering and to my surprise her family gifted us with a free course on Transcendental Meditation, a form of vedic meditation using a mantra.
One sign led to the next and before I knew it I was traveling around the world and studying with various teachers. My path continues to unfold like this today. I believe this is a process of surrender and faith.
For those of you feeling called to a healing path, I always say, begin with yourself.
THE PATH OF A HEALER, IS FOREMOST, A PATH OF A PERSON DEDICATED TO THEIR PERSONAL HEALING AND EVOLUTION.
Some of you following a healing path share that at times you question if this is the right direction for you, and I feel this is very natural. Questioning something is a quality of the mind. Personally, I know when I question something about myself and my path, I am often trying to control some aspect. This tends to create a blockage, where my receptivity is diminished and there is simply no space for Spirit to come through. Instead of questioning with my mind, I pray and meditate.
If you are currently searching for your path or walking a path that does not feel authentic for you, I suggest the two practices that have always supported me - Prayer AND Meditation. Idealy both simaltanously. Through prayer and meditation we can connect with Spirit and Spirit can connect with us. As Yogi Bhajan says, “Prayer is when the mind is one-pointed and man talks to Infinity. Meditation is when the mind becomes totally clean and receptive, and Infinity talks to the man.”