my new body of work exploring: LIGHT
Those of you who know me, know my passion is ENERGY. I've been practicing and studying energy for over a decade to heal myself from chronic illness and emotional trauma. And way before this, as a child I was born a lover of nature (a triple Earth sign), a sensitive being with an unbelievable curiosity for life. My favorite place has always been the beach - why - because there I am on the Earth and under the Sun.
The root of my work today is Shamanic Energy Healing, which put simply means, living in harmony with Nature. And maybe you are like, what does this actually mean? Well, that is precisely what I will be sharing with you, how to live a way of life connected with Nature.
My first true study of light began in my twenties. After 10 years of living in NYC and working in the fashion industry, I left it all and moved into a tiny cottage by the sea in Amagansett, New York. I was diagnosed with an array of physical, emotional and mental conditions, such as Lyme Disease, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Adrenal Fatigue, EBV, Heavy Metal Toxicity, PTSD, Depression, etc. It seemed like 'all of a sudden' I was sick but I began to wonder, what was really wrong with me? I walked away from Western Medicine, stopped every prescription medication, and decided I was going to listen to the voice inside of me that said, I can heal myself. I quickly learned the reason I became sick was because of ONE simple truth, I was dis-connected from the energy of Nature, from the rhythm of life and in its place I was living in a metropolitan environment bombarded with non-native electromagnetic frequencies*.
I realize I made a pretty drastic life change but i knew it was necessary in order to get well. I learned my intuition was right, I could not get well in the same environment i got sick in. So I completely changed my environment.
I began rising with the sun, eating a more plant-based diet, spending my days under the sunlight, swimming in the sea and sleeping after sunset. The key is, I was also away from artificial light, I was no longer working at a computer screen, or on a land phone or cellphone, I did not have a TV, or the presence of wi-fi. At this time, I was also partaking in a few new practices including prayer, meditation and kundalini yoga, so it was initially confusing to know what truly was healing me. But, during this time I was friends with a photographer who let me borrow his medium-format Hasselblad camera and I began documenting light, and how light touches living beings, such as plants, animals, and humans. My first self-published book KANOA in 2004 was a photographic study of exactly this, the healing properties of Light and Earth.
Soon after, Spirit called me to Peru, where I began studying the Andean Tradition and learned about the spiritual forces of Nature and their names. The two that stood out for me were Pachamama / Mother Earth and Tayta Inti / Father Sun. These forces were worshiped and praised in all of the indigenous communities I visited, most notably the high mountain village of Q'eros. This is when it clicked for me.
After my first visit to Peru, I returned home and quickly saw the reality of how my life greatly differed from these Peruvian medicine people. I am not part of an indigenous community living on the land, like them or my ancestors. I am a modern woman living in North America, in a complex environment with many non-native influences. I realized I had been living in denial about the truth of my environment and what actually led to me becoming unwell.
I realized my time in Peru always felt healing because I spent my days connected with the Earth and at 10,000 ft. in the sky, connected so intimately with the Sun. This is why today I am still co-leading retreats to Peru with my dear friend and colleague Hannah Rae Porst and our group, Nuna Journeys.
Time passed and by word of mouth individuals began asking me how I healed myself. It became clear at this moment that I incarnated into a body to become a healer and share the wisdom I learned about energy, so I opened PUAKAI HEALING. All truly influenced and guided by Spirit.
Today when I see clients yes, I often see susto (shock or trauma), I also see dark ancestral energies, but I also see energy that no indigenous shaman could explain, and these are modern, non-native energies such as EMF's. This is real. I work together with my clients to cleanse their energy field but I always explain it is their day-to-day choices that influence their wellbeing. I am a guide, a teacher of what I have learned. The individuals I attract are the ones who are waking up, they are the ones asking questions, the curious ones looking for truth - just like I was, and still am today. So, I say, for instance, if you continue to repress negative emotions in your body you will continue attracting dark energies in your life and likewise, if you continue to make poor choices in regards to exposing yourself to non-native EMFs*, you will continue to be unwell.
Up until this day, I have shared solely about Pachamama / Mother Earth, the feminine energy that has healed me but I have not spoken about Tayta Inti / Father Sun and the masculine energy of light. I have never shared these personal studies because my shadow told me that people would finally see my truth, that I am 'different', maybe even a 'geek'. It wasn't until Spirit guided me to Lacy at Free&Native, and her Unblocked Shadow workshop where I learned tools to integrate my shadow, step more deeply into my authentic self and work to support the healing of living beings.
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PHOTOGRAPH from my series KANOA.
* Non-Native EMF is anything not naturally found in the environment such as visible light from artificial sources, electromagnetic fields from electricity transmission, radio frequency broadcasts from TV, cell phones, wifi, etc.